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Sunday, September 14th, 2003
4:25 pm	I think I have a new fetish. And that fetish is, asian girls. (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
9:08 pm	Blah blah blah... Say something! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2003
11:26 pm	Pathetic. Driving around, looking for gas seems like trying to win the lottery. Do any of you know what we should do about the gas prices? And the fact that no gas station appears to have gas? I'll tell you all what we should do. We should go find every eviromentalist and lock them away for about... 10 to 20 years in a fenced in forest that has nothing but trees and some wildlife, but no important resources beneath the ground. Then we should dig and harvest our own damn oil, and other minerals that this country has in such a surplus. The reason for these gas prices and lack of gas is because of these eviromentalist. " No no, you can't drill for oil! That's stealing from the earth!" Go chop off your balls dick head. The earth isn't using oil for anything. So it's fair game! Besides eventually everyone will kill everyone else, so there isn't really a need to have a long term eviromental health plan. I'm tired of people like this, making this country depended on other countries for something it could provide for itself. Everyone wants America to leave everyone else alone? Fine the people inside of America should leave America alone, and let ourselves take what we have under the ground to provide for ourselves. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 8th, 2003
7:19 pm	Fucking jerks. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 21st, 2003
11:06 pm	The man's society The first encounter, what a joke. She said hi, and I couldn't even speak. She was so intimidating. I felt the chills of lust crawl up my spin, and sink down into my adomen. Why do I feel like this, I begin to ask myself, she's just another overly attractive women that probably doesn't deserve to be that beautiful on the outside, she's probably as dark as coal on the inside. Why couldn't that person up stairs have made both beauty in and out of body? Look at me, i'm judging her already, no wonder I'm afraid. Besides, the thoughts swimming in my head aren't quite right either. I could walk up to her over power her, and rape her if i wanted to, make her walk down a dark alley and pefrom activities on her that she hasn't stained a bed sheet from. I wouldn't even need a knife, she's so tiny and fragile. I could get away with it too, an anyomous person, raped, in a dark alley, no semen stains of any sort, no finger prints. This would be similar to the OJ simpson trial, but, I wouldn't be on trial, some other poor sap would be. Some other dark figured man coming around the corner grabing her by the arms, and whispering into her ear, that this is the time, this is the time where your beautiful ousides become just as disgustingly ugly as your dark insides. Feel inevitablity wrapping it's hands around your neck, and slamming you to the ground, ripping away at your expinsive pearl color sports coat. And procceding to tear apart the short skirt to have access at the innocents you portray. Listen to what it says to you in your ear, it speaks the truth, " you go through life thinking that the only thing that matters is how much you paid for this coat, and what your beauty means to the average middle aged man walking home from work durnig the busy times of manhattan." Inevitablity speaks on, " You have just been violated, thinking that your position in life is higher than anyone elses. I bet you wish that I wanted you dead, but on the contrary, I want you to feel the pain other people feel each and every day. So my day dream is over, a dream, I'm disgusting. Considering this a dream? I need a drink Max's always has a good scotch. As the passage of life led me into the smokey tavern I begin to feel remorse for the thoughts I have been having as the page of this day's history is being writen. The women, did say "hi" to me, and I didn't repeat it back to her, she initiated a conversation. Stop thinking of this, order your drink, and sit down. I begin to tell myself, as I am perparing to sit down, I lite up a cigarette. Smoke creeps along the length of my arm when cries of pain scream out of the cornor of the room. " I hate you! I don't want to see you anymore!" The attractive women said sobbing and drowning herself in tears. She walks out of the bar, and out on to the streets. Some day for her, I begin to recite my preveous thoughts, and begin to play out the possiblites of her walk staggering around on the street. Maybe I'll finish this some time. But I proabably wont, never do. I don't like anything after the first sentence. Maybe a few things afterwards... But nothing worth keeping. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 12th, 2003
11:27 pm	Something of extreme importance. I need a box, in that box needs to be beer cans, in those beer cans there needs to be beer, which will be in those beer cans that shall be in the box. -These are the words of John. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
1:34 pm	War. 1."America is only going to war with Iraq for oil!" 2."President Bush is a murderer!" 3."America isn't "just" (meaning righteous) in this war!" 4."America has issues of their own that they should address before telling other countries how to run their own." These four quotes are taken from the common protester, domestic and foreign. To answer these quotes with debatable answers are as follows. 1. America isn't going after Iraq simply for oil. Reasons: 1. America sees what Saddam Hussein is doing to his own people. 2. America didn't believe that Saddam did destroy the weapons he was ordered to destroy. 3. In recent events have proven that Saddam does in fact have these weapons that he said he's destroyed... Also, during the time the weapons inspectors were in Iraq observing the dismantling of the weapons, they were called out. Leaving Saddam with missiles and other weapons of mass destruction. 4. In America there is a rule, the first rule that leads to an arrest, the rule is this; reasonable suspicion. What is reasonable suspicion? Reasonable suspicion is. " The act of suspecting something, especially something wrong, on little evidence or without proof. " Saddam portrayed this, thus leading us into accusations. 5. Saddam denying access to certain areas in Iraq leads to reasonable suspicion, satellite images of vehicles moving around before inspections leads to reasonable suspicion. 6. As for the innocent people dying, we've done a very good job not killing innocent people, trying very hard, not to destroy any other buildings but military and/or targets of opportunity. If you look at our track record for killing innocent Iraqis then look at Saddam's record, you'd realize we're not even in the same ballpark as his numbers. He's killed millions of his own people for no real reason. To weigh Saddam's life and the people that are loyal to him, it is safe to say he deserves to die. The Iraqi people will be liberated, and build their own democratic office. 1a. Another point to make about the oil issue. Why is it when there might be an assumption that the only reason America is going to war is to be for oil? But when Saddam did it Americans didn't jump up and protest. Or when the three N.A.T.O. countries wouldn't help out with Turkey because they were afraid they might jeopardize their relations with Iraq and their oil trade? Never hear about any of this in the protesting... Only if America is assumed to do it. There isn't one person on this planet that isn't greedy, everyone is. And sometimes people die because of it. When it comes too world affairs, and when people high up want something, they are willing to sacrifice other peoples lives for it. Like the three N.A.T.O. countries, they didn't care about Turkey, they didn't want to help them out because they were afraid that Iraq might attack them, but that's no concern to anyone. They would rather be in good with their source of oil, and let a member of the N.A.T.O. security counsel be crushed. 2. President Bush isn't a murder. Reasons: 1. Bush has an agenda; this agenda includes ridding Saddam of power, and creating a democracy instead of a dictatorship. A friend the other day said this... " Why doesn't Bush help other countries out instead of spending the money on this war? " Good question, although we do help other countries out. And they hate us for it. Take France for example, and World War II. France hates us for helping them out during this time of crisis. No other reasons, pride consumes them. With that aside, we do help other countries out with, food, shelters... belief structures... Money, and finally weapons. Now, here in the states. We talk, then use force if necessary. The necessity is only when talking doesn't solve anything. For example, if a man with a gun has people hostage, and the police talk to him for hours upon hours, this man is still threatening the peoples lives that he has hostage. The police would get a sniper, put him in a location and tell him to fire when he has a shot if the negotiations don't go as planed... No one wants anyone to die. It's just how things are. The Iraqi people are pretty much like these hostages, they are not allowed to upset Saddam or the people close to him. They will die. Or die to try a new weapon out. Saddam is a tyrant, point blank. He needs to be removed from power. I personally agree with killing a small number of people, if this grants thousands upon millions of people to live better and more human like lives. This same friend said, " Who is America to decide who's in charge? " Well, I answered her with this example. If a convicted child molester were to be near a school he would be immediately questioned by police and/or arrested for violating parole. Because this child molester is not stable to be near children. Saddam is the same way, Saddam has proven to everyone that he's not a stable leader. This is a legitimate reason to remove him from power. A question and statement people say often. " We should have taken out Saddam back in 1991." Well, in a perfect world there wouldn't be any need to kill. But this isn't a perfect world. Also back in '91 we weren't there to destroy Saddam, we were there to get Saddam's forces out of Kuwait. 3. America does have issues of our own. And I agree whole-heartedly that we should take care of them. This country on the inside isn't as well off as it could be. 1. Schooling systems needs improving. 2. Social Security needs to be redesigned. 3. Stop wasting money on not so important things such as NASA. We really don't need to keep going to the moon, or the telescope to see more black areas with a few lights here and there. 4. The war against drugs doesn't need a funding that could be helpful enough to get bums off the streets. To address the people in the military that want to leave because they didn't know they were going to go to war. People, now seriously, if you were to join the military common sense should tell you that you are going to fight in a war if necessary. They use this excuse, " The recruiter never told me that I was going to war." Fine, maybe he didn't, but you still swore to protect this country. That means if you have to then you will go to war. Even if it an offensive, you will still be protecting something. I can't think of anything else to add to this, if I do I'll post more. Oh and as for the weapons Saddam does have. You're right back prior to '91 America did give Saddam weapons for his war against Iran. But we've managed to get him to disarm and destroy the majority of these weapons. But he does still have weapons we don't know about. He buys them from Russia. Also, the first attack in Kuwait, it was near a shopping mall? (no military targets, just innocent people roam around here, again proves how the Iraqi military weighs human lives.) This missile had Chinese markings on it, and they believe it was what they call a "skimmer missile" (forgive me if I'm wrong on the exact name) but the Chinese are the only people that make this weapon. It was launched from Iraq, brings up another possible supply of weapons, or it was sold to the Iraqi military via Russia. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2003
1:35 am	Nothing. I haven't used this thing in so long... But tonight, seeing as to how my throat hates my guts and it's not letting me sleep I decided to catch up on some of the peoples lives that I haven't talked to or seen in months and months... I have work today, at 3 am. Lovely, no sleep since 12 yesterday fantastic. Good thing it's only six hours today. By the way, for any one that has me left on their friends list, is Joey and Bree moving back to AZ? Current Mood: Hate felt by my own throat. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 1st, 2002
7:00 pm	Health Care. So, you're a hard working American of 31 yet you need a heart or you will die in a few short months. You mantain a job and have an average income of 40k a year, you have three childeren and a wife. You haven't commited a serious crime. You pay taxes. But you're second on the heart transplant list. Who's before you? An inmate, yep, a convicted fellon doing time for murdering two people, or armed robbery. An inmate in California was granted a heart transplant. The worth of the transplant? 1,000,000 (one million dollars). An imate who doesn't pay taxes and wont for the next 14 years will get a heart before you do. Why? Because imates have a right to health care! A right! It's in the consitution. The justifications are clear... Some may disput that it would be unusal and horrible punishment if you were to decline someone in prision a heart if he were dying because of a bad one. Yet let's look at this, 12 people a day die because they are waiting for heart transplants, the majority of them are not convicted fellons and do not serve time behind bars. But are most likely middle class people who have a family to support and people to care for. One of these 12 people died because of this imate who got a heart transplant for free. Who's to blame? No one directly. But when it comes down to it, the person second on the list most likely deserves the heart. I wouldn't mind my tax dollars going to a middle class person whom has a family and lives a justified life, rather seeing a criminal that murdered someone get what they don't deserve. Now here's the real question. Say if you had an imate on death row? Just got on death row and his sentence is 15 years, then he'll die. Does he deserve a heart simply because he has a right to have that heart? VS. someone who is a tax paying, hard working individual? My vote goes to the hard working low income female of 35, who got mugged in the parking lot and had a baseball bat jabed so hard into her heart it damaged it, and she will be dying in the next few months. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 23rd, 2002
4:29 am	umm... Hi. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 8th, 2002
4:12 pm	I had a weird dream. so, there i was sitting on this chair outside, and these two girls whom both i knew, but unlikely to ever hang out with each other. so the girl on the left was the more attractive looking one and i was interested in her, some how we met up on this bench and she handed me papers of her work, i was looking though them and then all the sudden over loud speakers they were saying put on you healments and put on you suits you're going to the gas chamber! i was like what? and i looked on the ground and i saw helmets on the ground and people nude walking towards the showers, i then realized i was dreaming about a consintration camp! then they began to burn the dead bodies... i have no idea why i had this dream. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 4th, 2002
11:55 pm	So is Joey and Bree moving? If they are I hope they enjoy themselves. Good luck with whatever comes your way. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 31st, 2002
11:24 pm	My mom said I am worthless... I probably am. I don't have a job, I crashed my car, I do little around the house... Fuck, I better get that job by Bill, so we can move out... I hate being worthless I remember when people actually liked who I was that was quite awhile ago. All I do now is read geek stuff I am a geek. I saw survivor for the first time today, that would be so rad to live by myself on an island or maybe with people, regardless of which i would enjoy that greatly. Making my own house, killing and hunting food. Dreams are lies and day dreams are worse than that, they fill you with some hope and you get happy over it then you realize that it was a wish and wishes never come true. Being worthless can really make a person feel bad, I have until the 17th and I am out on the streets, with or with out a job it doesn't matter. I don't understand how I could fail at so many things. Current Mood: I have none. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 30th, 2002
2:12 am	name: John Lee Lyons location: Litchfield Park, AZ. hair: Darkbrown. eyes: Hazel height: 6'3'' clothing: Whatever is clean. music: Eh. make up: A little masscara, nail polish, lipstick... Drag queen. body art: None yet. piercing: None yet. places you've been: AZ, Oregon, Navada, Cali, Washington (probably), Texas, Ohio, whatever states i had to fly over to get to south carolina, and then finally south carolina. 1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive? I don't know... never gave it much though. 2. Have you had braces?: Yes. 3. Do you ever cut or hurt yourself?: Not on purpose... 4. Could you live without a computer?: Yes. 5. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: Yes. 6. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: 30. 7. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?: When ever al capone lived. 8. Do you drink enough water?: I think so... 9. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: I usually take them off. 10. What is your favorite fruit?: Don't have one. 11. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: White. 12. What is your favorite place to visit?: Um, I would like to visit Alcatraz, but as for places I've they all suck. 13. What is the last movie you saw?: Punch drunk love, horrible movie. 14. Do you kiss on the first date?: I don't know... I don't think i've ever been on a 'date' 15. Are you photogenic?: Nah. 16. Do you dream in color or black and white?: Color, I assume... 17. Do you have any dimples?: Yes. 18. Do you remember being born?: No. 19. Why do you take surveys?: Bored, and I am on a survey rampage. 20. Do you drink alcohol? Sometimes, when cute girls ask me too. 21. Did you like or do you like high school?: Highschool was easy, but as for going there and the people... the crap no i didn't like it. I like to learn. 22. What is the most beautiful language?: American... 23. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake?: It's something I want to happen. 24. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: Doesn't matter to me. 25. Do you want to live to be 100?: No. 26. Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair?: Yes. 27. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most?: Depends. 28. Is a flat stomach important to you?: Not really. 29. Do you or have you played with a Ouija board?: No. 30. Are you loyal?: Yeah... 31. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?: Yeah. 32. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights off or on?: On. 33. Do you believe in magic?: No. 34. Do you have nightmares frequently?: No. 35. Do you like your nose?: It's ok. 36. Do you like abstract art?: No. 37. Do you listen to music daily?: Yeah. 38. Do you like to watch cartoons?: Yeah. :) 39. Do you snore?: Nope. 40. Do you lick stamps?: It's not a hobby.. but when i need to i do. 41. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: Emotional. 42. Do you think balding men should shave their heads?: Nah. 43. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: That's a joke. 44. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: Both. 45. Are you a sex addict?: No. 46. Do you know someone who has cancer? Yeah. 47. Do you hunt?: Nope. 48. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: Both. 49. How long is your hair?: Short. {x} Fallen for your best friend?: No. {x} Made out with JUST a friend?: Yes. {x} Been rejected?: Yes. {x} Been in love?: No. {x} Been in lust?: Yes. {x} Used someone?: Everyone does in some way or the other. {x} Been used?: Yes. {x} Cheated on someone?: Yes. {x} Been cheated on?: Probably {x} Done something you regret?: Yes. Who was the last person... {x} You touched?: Brian. {x} You talked to?: Ryan. {x} You hugged?: Brian. {x} You instant messaged?: Sam. {x} You kissed?: I don't remember it's been a long time. {x} You yelled at?: I don't remember. {x} You laughed with?: Andrew. Have you/are you/do you... {x} Considered a life of crime?: Yes, the mob... I've always wanted to be in the mob. {x} Considered being a hooker?: No. {x} Considered being a pimp?: No. {x} Are you psycho?: No. {x} Schizophrenic?: No. {x} Obsessive?: No. {x} Obsessive compulsive?: No. {x} Anxiety?: No. {x} Depressed?: Nope. {x} Suicidal?: Never. {x} Obsessed with hate?: Nope. {x} Understanding?: Most of the time, and if I don't understand I try to understand it. {x} Open-minded?: I try. {x} Arrogant: Yes. {x} Insecure: No. {x} Interesting: Not really. Unless you like geeks. {x} Hungry: Nope. {x} Friendly: Yep. {x} Smart: To a degree. {x} Moody: No. {x} Childish: No. {x} Independent: Yes. {x} Hard working: Yes. {x} Organized: Not really. {x} Healthy: Yes. {x} Emotionally Stable: Yes. {x} Shy: Yes. {x} Difficult: Yes. {x} Attractive: I guess. {x} Bored Easily: Yes. {x} Responsible: Yes. Sometimes Currents {x} Current Clothing: Midtown shirt and jeans. {x} Current Mood: Happy. {x} Current Taste: Cigarette. {x} Current Hair: 548 differant colors, not brushed, froed. {x} Current Annoyance: None. {x} Current Smell: None?. {x} Current thing you ought to be doing: Sleeping. {x} Current Desktop Picture: Windows defult. {x} Current Favorite Group: I don't have a favorite. {x} Current Book: Either Xenocide, or whatever the next book in bean's series. {x} Current DVD In Player: I don't know. {x} Current Refreshment: Nothing. {x} Current Worry: Not worry but hope, I hope to get this damn job. {x} Current Crush: None. {x} Current Favorite Celebrity: I haven't an idea. Favorite... {x} Food: Italian... and American. {x} Drink: Pepsi. {x} Color: None. {x} Shoes: Old shoes. {x} Candy: None. {x} Dance: None. {x} Vegetable: Hm... I would say carrot... Or corn. {x} Fruit: I don't have a favorite. On Dating... {x} Long or short hair?: Doesn't matter. {x} Dark or light hair?: Doesn't matter, i've noticed they are equally mean. ; ) {x} Tall or short?: Short. {x} Dark or light eyes?: Doesn't matter. {x} Hat or no hat?: No hat. {x} Pierced or no?: Not to extreme. {x} Freckles or none?: Doesn't matter. On preferences... {x} Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? Neither.. {x} McDonalds or Burger King?: Jack in the Box. {x} Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend?: Um... The perfect friend. {x} Sweet or sour?: Sweet and Sour. {x} Root Beer or Dr. Pepper?: Root Beer. {x} Sappy/action/comedy/horror?: All of them... {x} Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese?: It depends... {x} Mud or Jell-O wrestling?: Haha, I haven't done either one... Nor watched them. {x} With or without ice-cubes?: With. Yes even then. {x} Shine or rain?: Shine. {x} Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring?: Summer. {x} Vanilla or Chocolate?: Neither. {x} Eyes open or closed?: Depends... {x} Fly or breathe under water?: Fly. {x} Bunk-bed or waterbed?: Waterbed. {x} Chewing gum or hard candy?: Neither. {x} Motor boat or sailboat?: Motor. {x} Lights on or off? depends. {x} Chicken or fish? Ham. Beef... what's your favorite: {x} Number? I don't have one. {x} Holiday? Don't have one. {x} Place? Don't have one. {x} Scent? Some kind of food I am sure. Current Mood: bored. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 28th, 2002
10:57 pm	I think I just may go on a survey rampage. (Comment on this)
10:57 pm	x. name = John Lee Lyons x. birthday = 9.22.83 x. piercings = 0 x. tattoos = 0 x. height = 6'3'' x. shoe size = 12 x. hair color = dark brown x. length = short x. siblings = Sister and brother. x. pets = None. last... x. movie you rented = I don't remember. x. movie you bought = I don't think I've ever bought a movie. x. song you listened to = No song but comedian. George Carlin. Free Floating Hostility. x. song that was stuck in your head = I don't remember. This remembering shit is getting old. x. song you've downloaded = I downloaded some of Robin Williams stand up... x. cd you bought = I think it was Bad Religion... Three years ago? x. cd you listened to = George Carlin. x. person you've called = No one. x. person that's called you = No one. x. tv show you've watched = Moster Garage. x. person you were thinking of = No one. do you... x. have a bf or gf = No. x. have a crush on someone = No. x. wish you could live somewhere else = Not really. But it would be a nice adventure. x. think about suicide = No. x. believe in online dating = No. x. think others find you attractive = I suppose... x. want more piercings = More? I need one first... x. want more tattoos = Again.. I need one first. x. drink = Who doesn't, it's essential to live. x. do drugs = No. x. smoke = Yes. x. like cleaning = No. x. like roller coasters = Yes. x. write in cursive or print = Haha... Write? I don't there is a name for my type of hand writing... x. carry a donor card = No. for or against.. x. long distance relationships = Aginst. x. using someone = Using someone for personal benefit with the cost of them getting hurt aginst, but using someone as in the sense of applying for something with out harm to them for. x. killing people = Sadam... Bin ladin for... people that hurt other people for... x. teenage smoking = I assume I would be for it considering I smoke. x. doing drugs = Aginst x. premarital sex = For. x. driving drunk = Aginst x. gay/lesbian relationships = Whatever floats your boat. x. soap operas = Aginst. best.. x. gum = None, I hate gum. x. tv show = CSI, The Agency, Monster Garage, to name a few. x. thing in the world = What ever makes me happy. x. thing to collect = I don't collect things. x. colors of all time = Depends on the application. x. thing to do on a rainy day = When I was young my friend and I would swim in the flooded streets, and act like navy seals sneaking around. x. feeling in the world = What kind of question is this? Of course being happy. favorite... x. food = Italian... And American food, steaks hamburgers things of that nature. x. song = I don't have a favorite song. x. thing to do = I like to build things whatever I can do that ustilizes my hands I am good to go. x. thing to talk about = Anything that interests me... x. sports = Baseball, and hockey. x. drinks = Pepsi I suppose.. x. clothes = Whatever is clean. x. picture = I don't have one. x. movies = Hm.. I don't have a single most favorite movie. x. band(s)/singers = Again no single favorite. x. holiday = The same day everyone I know is happy. If you think about it you will understand that statement. x. cars = '67-'69 camaro (being my favortie), '65 GTO (actually '65 gto is at close debate with the camaro's)... '71 Hemi Cuda, Dodge Super bee, a few years of the mustang, and a couple years of corvettes... have you... x. ever cried over a boy = No. x. ever lied to someone = Yes. x. ever been in a fist fight = Yes, pleanty. x. ever been arrested = Yes, one time to many. what... x. shampoo do you use = Head and sholders? x. perfume do you use = Perfume? haha none. x. shoes do you wear = Some skate shoes I've had now for three years. x. are you scared of = I don't know... Some things I am sure. But I haven't found them yet. number... x. of times you have been in love?: I don't think I've ever been in love... Just happy where you was and who it was with then I realized awful things so I stoped myself. x. of times you have had my heart broken?: I suppose once. x. of hearts you have broken?: None probably? x. of boys you have kissed?: Um, none? On the cheek a few. x. of girls you have kissed?: I don't know, I haven't kept a tally. x. of continents you have lived in?: 1 x. of drugs taken illegally?: 1 well three if you consider booze and cigarettes being drugs at the minor age. x. of people you would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: None. x. of people you consider your enemies?: None. x. of people from high school that you stayed in contact with?: No one. x. of cd's that you own?: None. x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: Not sure. x. of scars on my body?: A lot. x. of things in my past that you regret?: A few... Current Mood: bored... (Comment on this)
Friday, October 25th, 2002
2:53 am	So I think my mom came to her senses and realized what she's been saying that past few days... I hope she stays like this it sure would be nice to have a happy mom again instead of one hating me... She use to say that she was going to make it to where I hated her... Today she said that she doesn't want use to leave now, she's going to give us time to get things together get some money saved up then she'll let us leave. At least she's not threating to kick me and my brother out anymore, also she's not mad all the time. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 16th, 2002
6:18 pm	I can't stand this hatecore shit eveyone want's to play around with... It's gay and should not exsist.. If you hate everyone fucking move away from everyone. Don't sit around and say you hate everyone. Some people might care, I care. What makes things worse is these people don't see what they could have. It doesn't work one way, the other person isn't the only person that should make the effort. Have some fucking respect for other people and their feelings rather than just going off and being immature and selfish. Get a new hobbie rather than the current feeling sorry for yourself bull shit. Current Mood: annoyed (6 Comments |Comment on this)
2:51 am	Tonight was fantastic... Some shitty thoughts on tonight though. The youth of America is so ingnorant and shouldn't believe false idols. Some kids should grow up and not make silly threats to people. There is only one thing in life that annoys me more and that is being lied too, other than people making threats and lies life is grand. Current Mood: tired (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 15th, 2002
2:23 am	Black pants and a pack of cigarettes are the only things that seem to occupy this insignificant lifestyle. Talk to me tonight and tomorrow you will ignore me, I feel no loss because I had no gain. Second to none is the first real reason anybody seems to live for. Take what you can run with the rest, leave them alone when they leave you alone, I suppose that would be easy enough for you but leave them alone when they wouldn't leave you alone is hard to do. You feel what you can't express in words but in emotions seem to speak louder than a loudspeaker. I can not compare lives and do not desire too. Only if things of this nature would spawn again another being like you would I enjoy her as much? I hope so, I hope she crosses my path and I would run into her, black pants and a pack of cigarettes wouldn't be the only significant thing in life. (1 Comment |Comment on this)